i just want taylor to know how much she means to me and how without her i would’ve gave up on myself a long time ago and that she’s the reason i’m still alive to this day and after so many years of battling depression and fighting my own demons, i’m finally content with myself and who i am as a person and i’ve stopped letting people walk all over me and realized that i’m worth so much more than how people treat me. it’s funny how taylor and i seem to go through the same experiences at the same time but it also makes me feel a little bit connected to her in a way? people will never understand just how much she truly means to me and what she’s done to help me and that’s okay, as long as she knows that then nothing else matters. that’s why i hope that just somehow, someday she’ll know that. even if it’s by her liking a post of mine or something small like that, at least she’ll know. there’s a good chance she’ll never notice me and i’ll never meet her, i’m trying to learn to accept that, but i still don’t want to give up hope, y’know? it’s been almost 9 years. i just really love @taylorswift and i need her to know that.